When you have every aspect of your life under control - except when it comes to romance, is what I call black, beautiful, and trapped. What this means is you can't seem to break away from the bad relationship that you're in. I don't mean abusive or violent because we know how to fix that problem - 911. What I'm talking about is the man who means you no good and you know it but you can't get the courage to end it.
It may have started out as something good or maybe he pulled the wool over your eyes, but that only lasted a short time and you either become bored, frustrated, or both. You have probably ended the relationship more than once - he blurted obscenities at you and you back at home, vowing never to look back from the tired so and so that seemed to consume your soul. But...
...at of it all...when reality sets in, you feel like something is missing, a void; a void that dating someone new cannot fill and for some reason you find yourself dialing all but that last number over and over again. You can't break down. You're too strong for that.
You wonder if it is ESP or something because out of the blue you get a text message (he wouldn't dare call) - he has to feel you out first and see if you're still...angry...as he calls it. When the number pops up you're ecstatic but the diva in you has to keep your cool. A few messages back and forth leads to a visit, leads to a night together, and before you know it you're right back where you started. Once again you're trapped.
How does one break the cycle when you are black, beautiful, and trapped?
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